knowing that i can come to Jesus just as I am, without one plea, but that His blood was shed for me, and that he bidst me come to him, O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
What a sweet sweet song; but so true. that we can go to Jesus anytime, just as we are, without anything, just as I am - because He's going to meet me, just as I am. Because He's going to meet me, just as I am, a sinner. Because He's going to come to meet like the way he met Peter after Peter messed it up, and He's going to invite me to eat with him again, just as Jesus invited Peter to eat with him.
i believe it Lord

New song up!
"So in love": written on a breezy evening, with lots of prayer and divine help from GOD - who is helping me write awesome songs again. yay.

so here's the link, hope you enjoy it:

http://www.soundclick.com/bands/page_songInfo.cfm?bandID=1051619&songID=9866807


okay good day folks! more studyin coming up=D

I think the song "CREEP" (By radiohead) is the biggest lie of all.

let's just put it logically
1) the boy wants to get a girl and be together with her.
2) the girl doesn't want him
3) so he thinks he's a creep - and it consumes him, making himself feel like a creep. he thinks he's a creep
4) so the next time he gets a girl who falls in love with him, he can't love himself. he can't understand why the girl can love him, because he thinks he's a creep. and he doesn't love himself. fine, he loves that girl, but when the girl likes him, he thinks why the hell would u do that.
5) so the relationship is unhealthy. and in the end, maybe, they break up. and all that.
6) all because he thought he was a creep, even though the girl loved him.
7) that boy could be me. if not for GOD, who tells me i'm LOVED. i'm CHOSEN. i'm SAVED. im LOVED. im CHOSEN. im SAVED.

so, IM NOT A CREEP.
just a "beloved".

God has decided to save me
AMEN!
And nothing will ever change that.

suck that, devil.

sians. i have destructive tendencies. tsk.

its like when GOD blesses me and im one in union with Christ and everything is awesome, like, got love, peace, kindness, goodness, everything, and his presence with me, i go and screw it up after a while.

whats wrong with me.
and then i lose everything that i really wanted so badly. i mean, doctrinally, i havent lost it, but ive lost it, if u noe what i mean.
like the joy is gone.
coz i screwed it up.

im a mess sometimes. ack

my bloody pride gets in the way of obeying JESUS.
The things i wanna do i can't do. ack.
but I must obey!!!!

never settle for the path of least resistance
loving might mean taking chances, but they're worth taking
loving might be a mistake but it's worth making
don't let some heavy heart leave you bitter
when you come close to selling out reconsider
give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
and when you get the choice to sit it out, or dance
i hope you dance=)

I must believe that i'm loved, because the truth is, that I'm loved.
by Jesus, GOD! =D
of course i can't see, but He's told me before, and it doesn't change, even now.
and knowing that, and really holding on to that, is going to change my life. for the better. that i may be good.
the innate knowledge of that will change my life.

shawn

Christ is with me right now and forever and this is awesome . What can be more awesome than this? Keep my heart o lord from idols then


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well, before I write this let me disclaim that this is just for kicks. In case you think im a lecherous perverted boy, that's not true.A perverted boy will spend his time surfing porn or sggirls. this is none of that.

this is none of the sort. this is really just about how do you, facebook stalk.
haha.

1. see your mutual friends; they tell everything about the person.
a) if she's a girl, and many of your mutual friends are from school X, for example, MGS, chances are that she's from that school. if he's a boy, and many of your mutual friends are from, for example, ACS, chances are, he's from there. which is cool.
b) church friends - if many of your mutual friends go to one church and the person is from that church, then, well, chances are, she's from that church especially if she puts her religion as Christian.
c) random friends - your mutual friends all clubbers? probably, she is a clubber too, an avid one, who probably met them in clubs.this applies to anything: for example, if they all go to coffee place O, then, perhaps, she also goes there and happened to make friends with them.
d) a specific 'mutual friend and all her friends': its more tricky when you have a mutual friend X, and all her mutual friends are also friends of X -- it's possible that she met these friends through X, and it's even more plausible when you also met all the mutual friends of X through X (X is a great person that brings people together).

2. see photos. of course only if you're shallow hal - often that is a useless way of getting to know someone.

3. see their interests - both of you love music? tick. both of you love cooking? tick. both of you love cats? tick. of course, as himym says, that's often not a good gauge though, if you're looking for a soulmate. just coz 2 people can have all the same interests doesn't mean that they'd automatically be soulmates. still. well. worth a go.

4. see what games they like to play.

5. well, if you're lucky, you can see their wall. most people these days lock their walls, but if you're fortunate enough and the person leaves the wall open, you can tell alot of things. what he's always doing, what he lieks to do, how he responds, is he a funny kinda guy, a sian kinda guy, a whiny kinda guy, and a whole lot more. or brainy, and that's a big turn off. no-no.


The bottomline, however, is that fb stalking is a horrible way of getting to know a person, because to really get to know a person often a simple message and reply can tell you far far more than all these methods of fb stlaking. that is, if you really want to get to know a person. but that's also conditioned on the fact that they must want to talk to you. ive added people who didnt want to add me back, and so i just was left stranded. and then in that case, sorry folks. then that's the usefulness of fb stalking -by knowing who your mutual friends are, you can persuade them to introduce both of you, or something. which, if they're relaly nice, they might do. especially if they're very close to you. however, don't count on it. it doesn't usually work - but if it does,then bingo, ur fb stalking did help. it's good to do some research, ya know, the due dilligence. yup!

thats all folks.

for the record i dont usually do this =D

the Lord says - put your helmet of salvation on.
I WILL LORD. RIGHT NOW RIGHT NOW RIGHT NOW

I usually twitter nowadays, but for some posts that i find very important in my life, i'm going to paste them up here.

"remain in me, and I will remain in you" - i must remain in His love - now now now - "so remain in My love". AMEN.
less than 20 seconds ago via web
i had a damn funny dream - i dreamt that i was selling freshly ground black pepper (as a business plan) - and I negotiated with mcdonalds.
about 1 hour ago via web
i really dislike myself - but Jesus loves me - so i will love Jesus more!!!!
about 1 hour ago via web
i will love the LORD MY GOD with all my heart. thats what i must do. with the help of GOD.

this sums up my morning - about trying to love Jesus more, because, like a prostitute who's really loved by a man, she has learnt to love that man back. and i will learn to love JESUS more, even if my heart shall break. and when my heart breaks i will go to the LORD for forgiveness, and then i will try again.
must not end.

by the grace of GOD who is helping me.

Thank GOD for "anointing my head with oil" again, that I may enjoy music again, and enjoy life, and enjoy love, and write and create music again. Which is amazing. Gone, perhaps, are the bad days.
For He anoints my head with oil, and will do it again and again.

yay.

Gotta break through!

cannot let your mood be detracted by what people think of you - or what you think you should be - like if your parents are angry at you and disappointed it doesn't mean you gotta be like, sad, all the time, or chastise yourself!

as the song says

"girl PUT YOUR RECORDS ON, Play me your favourite song, JUST GO AHEAD LET YOUR HAIR DOWN / sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams, just go ahead let your hair down"!

yah sometimes u gotta be happy even if the rest of the world don't want you to be - because they're sad. but hey, you're not them!

i realise i dont blog enough coz now i have twitter, i have fb, but blogging is realy when you want to express something of yourself. I mean, im not perfect, and part of me is thinking this is damn stupid why the hell am I writing this and not studying and it's useless because it's not going to change my life - after i post this ill go ahead back and be the damn old schoolboy i was, is, and hopefully will stop being but knowing that i will still be, like that.

It's very sians and only GOD can slowly change me which He is doing as I pray to Him and enjoy His love and His presence and His comfort and joy and assurance and all those wonderful things and rest in His love - and Him willing slowly submit myself to Him - submit my body - which has been ravaged - to Him and let him slowly change me. as I remain in Him.

the lesson is still clear. "remain in Me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself, IT MUST REMAIN IN THE VINE".
I must remain in CHRIST always. and i believe, for He has said so, that He is going to be with me, He is going to be faithful, He will be with me "for the rest of my life" (his words, not mine).
and it will happen, i believe. i will look back and notice his hand in my life, even though, well, my physical body is weak and i'm undergoing a milion and one infirmities. but ultimately, salvation for my soul is real.

i notice that every post goes back to GOD but then that's the only hope.

I just had a really really meaningful conversation with E, P, W, G, and M - which was really nice. talking about God, Jesus, spiritual warfare, battles, sin, love, and everything under the sun. it is really refreshing when you can talk about these things that are really dear to your heart. yes, even over some beers and some teh-pings, even with law school people, you can be true to yourself. i blog about this because i just want to remember it. its nice when you can talk to people about everything, like how 'feelers' like me function, or behave, because honestly very few understand me. but its nice when some do. but it was just meaningful - i felt that it had meaning and it was good. and we should have really have more of this. instead of the senseless boys nights out.

and speaking of this i had the most amazing experience walking towards home when i wanted Jesus to be in the centre of everything good in my life - of everything beautiful in my life - and He walked with me, and made things beautiful - the songs and music (s,a) were beautiful again as He walked with me - like He made them beautiful - and He said he will be with me, all the days of my life, even after the music and the songs are gone, for they cannot be playing forever. and that is so touching and beautiful. praise God.

when the psalmist says "one day in the house of the LORD is better than a million elsewhere", sometimes i am like, wth, but sometimes really i understand its truth.

I have to be humble.
this is the start of something exciting, i think, being involved in a few projects of music, maybe finally getting a chance to have songs published; but then, this is the important thing, when you are well fed, and have success, DO NOT FORGET THE LORD YOUR GOD WHO gave you these things - like the israelites - and you are to "BLESS THE LORD YOUR GOD FOR THE GOOD LAND".
there's a verse on this;
Deuteronomy says:
When you have eaten and are satisfied, you shall bless the LORD your God for the good land which He has given you. 11 "Beware that you do not forget the LORD your God by not keeping His commandments and His ordinances and His statutes which I am commanding you today ; 12 otherwise, when you have eaten and are satisfied, and have built good houses and lived in them, 13 and when your herds and your flocks multiply, and your silver and gold multiply, and all that you have multiplies, 14 then your heart will become proud and you will forget the LORD your God who brought you out from the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery."
it's the same now, as it is in the past; - our hearts are full of pride. the bible says "the heart is deceitful above all else". and it truly is. my heart wants to boast in my own achievements, to the world to everyone, even to God, even - this is not me, its not that i weanna do it, but it's just a horrible sin of my life; so i have to obey the lord here - so that my heart will not be proud. and what is this? to PRAISE him to bless HIM. to WORSHIP HIM. so that everything will be kept in perspective - yeah, you may be successful, you may have nice cars, may have success, but it's all from Him, and what is this earthly success compared to the greatness that is in GOD? the greatness that is GOD, his infinite love and mercy and power?

I haven't been updating much but just thought this is a good platform to talk - the trick is not to let your success or talents get to your head- it robs you of your humanity.
One must be humble, yes, humble,
For it is the lord who works even though I don't feel that he is the one working and it's me - but it's still him and I must be reminded of that in my mind.

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if i were the evil one, the way i would stop christians growing is to stop them from reading the bible, the Word of God. i would trick them into using their feelings to discern God, or something; well, while we are not totally intellectual beings devoid of feeling, the feelings must be based on the word of God, for it is extremely easy to think of things that aren't there, or easy to feel. the Word of God says that "The human heart is the most deceitful of all things, and desperately wicked (Jeremiah 17:9)" - and it is so easy to be lead astray by all sorts of thoughts.

i prayed to the Lord last night, and i was reminded that even the Lord didn't use his own logic to fight the devil, when he was tempted; nor did he use his own reasoning to go against what others say, he just quoted the word of God, and of course was so familiar with it.

Putting the helmet of salvation is very difficult.
my mind is plagued by the devil.
this is his way of making me useless for GOD by making me worried about my salvation all the time.

but Jesus tells me to put the helmet on, and i must. i must trust.
i will keep praying to the LORD for his strength to help me trust Him and his promises, simply to take Him at his word.

thanks aunty yh for sharing; really appreciated that.
now it's remembering.
it's easy to forget, especially when life is against you.
or when you are in the doldrums of your life.

Putting the helmet of salvation is very difficult.
my mind is plagued by the devil.
this is his way of making me useless for GOD by making me worried about my salvation all the time.

but Jesus tells me to put the helmet on, and i must. i must trust.
i will keep praying to the LORD for his strength to help me trust Him and his promises, simply to take Him at his word.

thanks aunty yh for sharing; really appreciated that.
now it's remembering.
it's easy to forget, especially when life is against you.
or when you are in the doldrums of your life.