crap SATII wasn't fantastic, so how? never mind, hope the essays can salvage it. got 750 for writing and 660 for world history (not very smart to do world history, science students have it so much easier).

I am searching through blogger now to look for things to write about. Am thinking of 'self-identity' and an exploration of that concept with regards to my life as an issue. perhaps i might do that after all.

So tired. yesterday was a real busy day, had bball in the morning, a jam session in ws's house in the afternoon plus computer and lunches and hot dogs and fun, and a farewell for good ol' Mr Reeves at night at Bakers' Inn...great desserts and food, a bit of coffee and all that. so yah, great stuff. but i'm so tired now just woke up.

speaking of waking up, i dreamt of X. but then X just didn't look me in the eye. sounds familiar? haha. dreamt about a church stayover with mates, and alot of other things. but it just felt odd.

sheesh, it's not meant to be. haha.

CrAP, I keep spending so much money it's incredible. how do i live like that. gee. i'm spending on average 15 a day, and it's not even halfway through the week yet. plus i'm watching LOTR today and sigh i wonder how. gotta find some not-so-expensive activities.
haha gabriel if u're reading this u owe me FOOD. haha.=D (of course i can't get it from you if u're in melbourne rite....hee)
yes. like. not so expensive things like jamming or playing bball or mahjong or playing PS2...all these things are fun but are cheap. MC=0 (for the econs nuts). so yah. i probably can/should do more of those. playing pool and the works only leaves me with a gaping hole in my wallet, so i should probably cut down.

The more I look at friendster, the more I think it's stupid. it was nice at the start when everyone was saying nice things in their testimonials to everyone, but now it's cookie-cutter, you might as well cut and paste. it was refreshing at the start becoz friendster enabled pple to be positive, when there's so much rubbish going on in the world--testimonials were nice. but lately it has come to a stage when being nice is plain boring. I admire and applaud those who have decided to eschew their 'oh, she's so nice, she's so pretty, she's so..'UGH!!!! testimonials for something with a bit more meaning, like, 'she'd make a good rock star, i can imagine her pouting in front of the cameras'. Testimonials with a bit more definition to them, because right now i can faintly stand to read another one. of course everyone knows she's nice, cool, and all that, but it's retarded to keep saying it, like a broken record disk over and over again.

the thing is, one has to be one's own person, being unafraid to express one's own views and exude one's own personality. any other way is rubbish.

Nice good day had fun watched ELF
am singing those ELF songs

hear those sleigh bells tinkering
_____ too...
come on it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together
WITH YOO

outside the snow is falling and friends are calling you TOO
Come on its lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with YOO

too bad in singapore we don't have any snow, hah.

SANTA CALUSE IS COMING TO TOWN! U BETTA WATCH OUT!!!! DON'T BE NOTTI!!!

oh crap. i want some snow. sheesh. i'd love to throw snowballs like i was firing bullets, BAM BAM BAM.

SHEESH. IT'S NICE NOT TO TAKE YOURSELF SERIOUSLY. IT'S NICE TO HAVE FUN AND BE WILD AND JUST, EH, CRAP. BE CRAP.

Anyone want a tickle-fight?


err?

anyone?

u can icq me


...

haha.

i guess not.


On a more serious note I'm opening up another blog as a column for me to write things that wouldn't bore you guys. if there's anyone out there reading, actually.

and playing the piano sucks. the keys are all OUTTA TUNE! grr. (okay because of all that equal temparement rubbish, but i won't bore u guys) it spoils my ears.


I THINK I'M TURNING INTO A SOCIAL ANIMAL, RAWWWRRR=)

seriously, empathy is the best thing you can give to anyone. just to understand them makes life a whole lot easier....

People, what do you think about clubbing? i think the people who are often opposed to clubbing are the ones that hardly ever club, DUH. but it's not just that. when they don't go clubbing they assume that all girls and guys do is to touch here touch there. okay that might be true in some cases, but that's not the status quo, and need not be. girls and guys can decide what their limits are, and whether or not they want to lose control of their morals through drinking. people who can control their alcohol often find clubbing just a friendly activity of dancing and having fun, rather than just puking all over the place. it's not as if it's the house of sin where you just wanna get laid. in fact going with your friends, its a rather harmless activiitty. you dance in a circle, for instance, or just dance one to one with your friends and it gets really funny sometimes. all that moralising about how it's the house of sin and all that vice and all that is rather nonsensical. yes there are risks, but everywhere there are risks. the clutch is to control yourself no matter where you are, mebbe you can pray about it, haha, and go with friends, and go to parties where you know people, for eg. indus3 (after prom), so that at least there wouldn't be problems and fights and all that rubbish. and if you do all that it should be fine, of course. and please for goodness sakes' don't drink so much,....

I'm so happy, I just tuned my guitar perfectly in tune (Which is rather rare) and i realised that my ears are getting better again, without the stupid tuner, and i wrote 2 songs! 'simplify your life' which is just a ripoff from the stanford essay and needs new lyrics and a title, and another faster one about how life is so boring...quite a good pub song, mebbe coz i just got back from wala-wala, yah. 2 guitarists/singers, not bad.

yaks. still got a stanford essay to complete...

yesterday was supremely fun. i slept till 2 o'clock, and jeremy asked me to darren's at four, and basically throughout I wasn't thinking at all. i think it's fun not to think. it's much nicer, and there's less pressure on you to be something, you can just be yourself and soak up the cool and stuff. music flows more nicely into your head when you aren't thinking so much and aren't frustrated about life. it's like, you just stare into the space and wonder how nice the stars are, and the moon, and the simple pleasures of life. and all the fun. playing pool was cool, i was just potting the balls with consumate ease, 2 great banks that went across the tables that was truly rather fortunate (with God's eyes, perhaps, haha) and one cut from one end of the table along the cushion to the corner pocket which was cool.....i don't know, i thinnk my stance has improved, it used to be rather awkward but now at least my feet are closer together, like a snooker player would stand.

quiet time was good too, thank God. aiya.