I am confused, like a surge of waves that rides up and down.
I wish I could be as constant as the Northern Star
And I am worried that the fears are causing whatever buds of love or like there may be to be choked from the start
And I am struggling to recall the times we spent together. Was I in love with you? Or am I just trying my best to love you because I want to?
Wanting to love someone but not actually doing ! Ah the curse of the human condition!
(loving someone else that I shouldn't love, like someone else's wife - now that's even worse).
It is not an easy ride. I am struggling: I am thinking what should I do? I am not myself.
I want to be at peace with myself.
21 February 2015