today was the epitome of sian-ism. of really just doing nothing. of just lying around and slacking, or watching the tv, or i don't know...play 'part of your world' over and over again. that was a brilliant track [alan menken/howard ashman] , and its really incredible how these pple write those songs. coz the lyrics are so good, and the music fits perfectly and is so...i dunno, charming. yeah. so. that was really nice. but other than that nothing really seems to work, SES concert practise sucked like 'ell and eveyrthing was a mess and all that. yuckss...
hate it.
nvm.

=)

my word, oasis are kick-ass awesome! was watching 'familiar to millions' and when they played supersonic and everyone was dancing up and down, i mean, u'd wish u were noel gallagher for a bit! haha. their cocky lad-anthem culture and stuff, that prodding beat. hmms.
but seriously those pple who say writing blogs is stupid is quite true. i mean it's really quite rubbish sometimes, i mean, one has a tendency to compare what wer'e living now to that day in the blog, to the past, and forget that each moment is a uniquely distinct moment of its own, so go ahead and live it, instead of trying to remember the past.

not bad. wrote lots and lots of songs today...one really slow-sultry song abt being a bird and stuff, ah wells. it's not rock and roll but then again it's nicely oldish-american, gershwin-style without the jazz. and an oasis-eque song but then i was too tired to continue already. couldn't sleep.

yesterday's dream was about playing pool. weird.

hi all. man i'm just down with the flu, yesterday was really bad, i just died halfway through econs and math test and stuff and went home early, popped panadol, and plunged into bed, which was much better than nothing, drinking fruit juice and water all day long. so today i'm not in school, it's a wed after all i have PE so that won't do alot o' good, would it?
been reading the papers, and looking at the 'composers of the future' or something like that oN Life...now there is that guy, philip tan his name was, and my friend and i were discussing his credentials, coz he was the same guy that wrote the music for our community service project song and my did it suck! my word. coz i wrote the music already but they insisted it had to be one-one (we write the lyrics they write the music) so in the end the tune was wasted, damnit. argh. you know what...yeah i mean he just received a DBS commendation award! my word, singapore is really desperate for composers man. geez.
crap was just continuing the little 'suite of our lives' classical piece...the tone poem thinggi. gonna start the second subject soon! yeah! i'm so happy it took really long to get there. and when i woke up my brain was a fuzz, but hey i could tell you what C was, and what F was, and what A was!~ that was nice, for a change, from the cluelessness of trying to figure out notes. argh. wrote some tunes, not very good but i'm sick, so who cares. yeah who cares. argh. haha.
wells.

My word, today's music practice was really good! my rhythm sense was so on, my piano touch was so there, and the fills and riffs were all musical and lovely, thank God. and particularly robin mark's 'revival' was just so rhythmical and so rockish it was like drums beating on your head and bringing the song to a climax and the majesty and power of the rhythms and chords that go together as one in straight rhythm is just so stunning.

and besides, today was a much better day than yesterday, thank you Lord. i slept well, i believe. and it was good because of well, good things!

did some math. haha. not much time left huh.

crap i'm in such a fuzz. i'm getting all frustrated and only beauty and art and God can save me but I'm so sinful anyway and mebbe He's testing me, argh. im a wreck. seriously. been all stressed out and artificially engineered throughout the day it just kills me....
it's this endless spiral that kills me and wrecks me. it's as though there's two parts of my mind fighting. the good and the bad, the dr jekell and mr hyde in me. and they are struggling real bad, and sometimes hyde wants to take over.
sigh
i'm not even articulate, but i can't be. i'm too busy. i have too many things to do. ahhhh.

today was both a whirl and a fuzz! school was rather alright. i was just going crazy! you know, like, being the weird noisy crazy ol' me that's been gone for too long! yeah!

crap when that happens my musical mind is like a mess. intonation is all off. crap man.!
never mind.
trade off ah.

i just had this really weird dream yesterday, it was seriously uncanny.
it was abt this cute gal. and she was singing in a band! and the funny thing is that, i dreamt of the song that she sang, which was an original! i could only remember a small part of it, but my it was a nice song and so it's my song now, haha. anyway she was singing, and she was so endearing and stylish, my goodness, and pple were playing guitars all around her. and later on i went to another gig to try to meet her and she just didn't bother about me at all. and in school she just ignored me. but ah well. she looked so good on the stage. yummy.
haha
what a weird dream.

i'm scribbling down the song now. haha.