New song up!
"So in love": written on a breezy evening, with lots of prayer and divine help from GOD - who is helping me write awesome songs again. yay.

so here's the link, hope you enjoy it:

http://www.soundclick.com/bands/page_songInfo.cfm?bandID=1051619&songID=9866807


okay good day folks! more studyin coming up=D

I think the song "CREEP" (By radiohead) is the biggest lie of all.

let's just put it logically
1) the boy wants to get a girl and be together with her.
2) the girl doesn't want him
3) so he thinks he's a creep - and it consumes him, making himself feel like a creep. he thinks he's a creep
4) so the next time he gets a girl who falls in love with him, he can't love himself. he can't understand why the girl can love him, because he thinks he's a creep. and he doesn't love himself. fine, he loves that girl, but when the girl likes him, he thinks why the hell would u do that.
5) so the relationship is unhealthy. and in the end, maybe, they break up. and all that.
6) all because he thought he was a creep, even though the girl loved him.
7) that boy could be me. if not for GOD, who tells me i'm LOVED. i'm CHOSEN. i'm SAVED. im LOVED. im CHOSEN. im SAVED.

so, IM NOT A CREEP.
just a "beloved".

God has decided to save me
AMEN!
And nothing will ever change that.

suck that, devil.

sians. i have destructive tendencies. tsk.

its like when GOD blesses me and im one in union with Christ and everything is awesome, like, got love, peace, kindness, goodness, everything, and his presence with me, i go and screw it up after a while.

whats wrong with me.
and then i lose everything that i really wanted so badly. i mean, doctrinally, i havent lost it, but ive lost it, if u noe what i mean.
like the joy is gone.
coz i screwed it up.

im a mess sometimes. ack

my bloody pride gets in the way of obeying JESUS.
The things i wanna do i can't do. ack.
but I must obey!!!!

never settle for the path of least resistance
loving might mean taking chances, but they're worth taking
loving might be a mistake but it's worth making
don't let some heavy heart leave you bitter
when you come close to selling out reconsider
give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
and when you get the choice to sit it out, or dance
i hope you dance=)

I must believe that i'm loved, because the truth is, that I'm loved.
by Jesus, GOD! =D
of course i can't see, but He's told me before, and it doesn't change, even now.
and knowing that, and really holding on to that, is going to change my life. for the better. that i may be good.
the innate knowledge of that will change my life.

shawn