i really had a nice time at lcf yesterday; worshipping God in the spirit and in truth, knowing my spirit is with Jesus and safe with Him, trying to see things through the spiritual lenses rather than the earthly ones.

and then i go back to my old carnal ways.
zzz.
sorry need to rant: if that's the best your school can offer, i give up. hurhur.

how i miss my nice blog.
i think i'm going mad.
mad enough to be stuck in a rut for a long time.

i feel i'm being ignored all the time, really.
all these people.
ask them
"do you want to go for lunch"?
kena ignored.
like i said, or i told my other friends, i am always on the friend's ladder. no one wants to "Take a chance on me".

"if you change your mind,
i'm the first in line
honey im still free
take a chance on me".

i feel like a freaking whore.
partly this has to do with my mental condition of ocd.
but also to do with my impatience.
everyone is getting married.
i am looking for love in all the wrong places, with all the wrong people.
but then i don't want some boring guai goodie-two-shoes who will bore me to death.
argh.

confusions.