i shld've slept early on sat nite.....grrr. woke up on sunday with a terrible 38.7 deg fever, plus, it came complementary with diahorrea. oh the nightmare, the stiff chills in your knee joints, as though you can never straighten them, the cold that runs through your bones, and the worst thing is, the messy, 'boom-boom-boom', 'boom-boom-boom' rhythm thoughts that make every noise seem diabolical. man, i dread being sick. and diahooreaaa...... sigh. couldn't even walk to the clinic without having to relieve myself at the clinic toilet even before i got in.
how bad is that.
i shld've listened to pple.
sigh.
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Sunday, November 28, 2004
yesterday's QT was good; i really tried to make it an effort to focus on God, which sorta worked out okay;
it meant that today was better. i felt secure and comforted. and stable. on the way to bishan for my cousin's wedding tea ceremony i felt a nice sense of calm and listened to 'the waltz' and concentrating on the music once again... truly appreciating good intonation which is so-so important, i have to add.
because some music is just so nice. there is no rhythm. its just, music. and there are sublime moments when things are just floating and calm; i rweally can't describe it now, i've forgotten it.
but joyce's weedding was great....i loved the atmoshpere, the sermon on love, and my playing was good, thanks to God. i prayed beforehand, to commit the playing into HIs hands, by his power and His spirit, so that i may celebrate the occassion through music and, through music celebrate their love and give them something through music. it's the same principle: no matter what i do, i will commit it into God's hands because i can't do naything on my own anymore.
and later on it was so wonderful to be in total awe of God as the pastor was preaching and praying; the different names of God and the descriptions of God were so luxurious and so abundant that it just makes me think of God's characteristics and how He is so great and so wonderful. you just have to bow down in awe of him. and that was what instinctly struck me.
all the best to their marriage, my dear cousin and cousin-in-law. im sure they will be happy, because God is with them.
it meant that today was better. i felt secure and comforted. and stable. on the way to bishan for my cousin's wedding tea ceremony i felt a nice sense of calm and listened to 'the waltz' and concentrating on the music once again... truly appreciating good intonation which is so-so important, i have to add.
because some music is just so nice. there is no rhythm. its just, music. and there are sublime moments when things are just floating and calm; i rweally can't describe it now, i've forgotten it.
but joyce's weedding was great....i loved the atmoshpere, the sermon on love, and my playing was good, thanks to God. i prayed beforehand, to commit the playing into HIs hands, by his power and His spirit, so that i may celebrate the occassion through music and, through music celebrate their love and give them something through music. it's the same principle: no matter what i do, i will commit it into God's hands because i can't do naything on my own anymore.
and later on it was so wonderful to be in total awe of God as the pastor was preaching and praying; the different names of God and the descriptions of God were so luxurious and so abundant that it just makes me think of God's characteristics and how He is so great and so wonderful. you just have to bow down in awe of him. and that was what instinctly struck me.
all the best to their marriage, my dear cousin and cousin-in-law. im sure they will be happy, because God is with them.