It's tough to be a single, and waiting, and  waiting for God to provide a suitable helper for me.

It's hard to trust God when I can't see anything; hard to trust God when there are no plans for my life that I can see. 

Why is it like that? 

is there really someone out there that god has in mind? 

Can I look past the here and the now and to see God's purpose for me being concrete and real?

I don't know.

Wines

It's been a nice time trying better wines these days. These are some of my favourites:

Morgeot Premier cru (chassagne-Montrachet) - full of minerals, lively, with real acidity and a long finish. Good stuff.

I really loved this Yves Cullieron Condrieu from la Petite Cote (2010). It was superb, very full bodied and rich with honey peaches and some white peppers. Delicious. 

Last but not least, a st Joseph from e guigal. this was easy to drink, full of spice and with medium tannins. 

life

Maybe I am really such a bad conversationalist - such bad company. Not fun, always judging, always moody; always worried. No wonder people don't want to be with me. No wonder I get "daoed" on whatsapp chats and all that. No wonder no one wants to ask me out. No wonder I am such a bore, a chore, a slave. I have a medical condition and that keeps me from leading a normal life. I am not persevering. 

What did I do wrong? 

It's not about me is it.