Friday, January 23, 2009

quite amazing is the Lord's timing.
Just today I was thinking about the need to have Faith - and how I will believe in Him again - not just seek the assurances but really believe, have Faith, that He will pull me through and He will sustain me and He will keep me safe and He will do the things that He has promised in His word.

I was driving in my car, listening to Miles Davis' "Blue in Green" and enjoying the emotions, sensing beyond just the mere notes into feeling the emotions, feeling the music as a language, and its wonderful beauty. And I just had faith to believe again, and I just understood again how God created the trees, and people, and the roads, and suddenly, the trees along Bukit Timah Road looked so beautiful again as the leaves are crowned with God's glory, and suddenly music sounded nice again. everything was alive. blue in green really felt so lush, luxuriant.

I worshipped God, singing 'How beautiful, how wonderful, name above every names, exalted high."

and then i read hebrews 11:1-40. wow. how apt.
guess what verse it is:
"1Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. 2This is what the ancients were commended for.

3By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible. 4By faith Abel offered God a better sacrifice than Cain did. By faith he was commended as a righteous man, when God spoke well of his offerings. And by faith he still speaks, even though he is dead."


see:
"by faith we understand that the universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible."
amazing - just as what I had experienced just moments before and understood through His Spirit. how amazing is God's love to me.

The last verse strikes me: "39These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. 40God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect."

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

just some thoughts.

Because I'm not hurting myself only, I'm hurting the people around me that loves me. I'm hurting the Lord who loves me. I'm hurting people.

I can easily say - it's just my life, i can screw it up, and i can remake it later on. but it's not. it's not zero-transaction costs (to put it crudely). it's not simply a frictionless surface that you can go in and come out off without leaving any residue on the side or damaging your self, your soul, your body, etc - when you mess up your life. because when you mess your life, for eg. being involved in an unhealthy relationship or so, you're not the only one getting hurt. people hurt as well.


and i was super amazed at Obama's speech. it was really very very awe-inspiring. the wind, the breeze, the soil - he is an amazing speaker.

my heart belongs to Christ Jesus now and it must be kept there. The Lord will keep me (and my heart - it) safe - he told me so. i have to trust the One who chose me. For He told me that He has chosen me and He will keep me save.