Man I'm in limbo now. after the fun, the partying, the heyday of last week, this week just fades into oblivion, into a mess of disjointed thoughts, loneliness, awkward feelings, stress, not being myself, and all the useless emotions that come and go. I just felt so lonely. everyone's away now, darren in hongkong, ben with his girl (haha), the ac pple in bintan, left to hang out with my classmates. haha. its not a bad thing but then where are all my usual go-out-mates? sheesh. havent' got a single sms this week (not so bad but nearly there). lonely. sigh. feel like crying to some melancholy song like 'im a creep' or something like that.

girls if you want to go out then just tell me okay. sheesh. i promise your outing will be fun (haha).

okay that's quite a high expectation to reach. okay. let me rephrase that. i will promise i'll try my best to make your outing fun.

okay that sounds betta.

but before anyone thinks i'm a buaya, it's purely platonic. tyvm.

been playing lots of tennis, mahjong, pool. the things to keep me going. mahjong was fun. tennis, started getting my forehand stroke back. i realised it's because i'm not holding the racquet right at the end, so i can't get the usual topspin. pool was damn off against benny boy but mebbe because i've been drinking alot of hoegarden before that.

man.
i'm just off right now. this whole week. so if anyone asks me why i'm like that, it's just, like that. just off.

and i was pissed cuz blogger was down for quite some time.
so i've been playing simcity. pretty fun.
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you know, God, I have to trust in You, because You know perfectly...I just can't doubt and rely on my own strength--You know better. I shouldn't think that I'm wasting Your time by praying about every single thing because maybe that's what You want me to do? To count on You for everything and not try to fight on my own? To simply trust? and hope? and not doubt so much that You'll get it right?
Now all I have to do is to honestly say that prayer.

REM truly rocks.
they are a wonderful, wonderful band. i don't have to say anymore.
essential listening
losing my religion. everybody hurts. it's the end of the world (as we know it). man on the moon. imitation of life. radio free europe.

i mean. they're classic songs.

RHCP rocks too.
under the bridge. by the way. give it away.

Other interesting old songs

Verve Pipe-The Freshman

im going to put up a comments system again. about time, too.