Saturday, February 04, 2006

I am emotionally weak.

Especially when tired. A whole drain of emotions, the klutz, can't feel anything, can't wait to fall asleep in my bed. the whole day, the same old pattern, dragging myself to concentrate in the office. clerk life is stupid because of the mundanity. i wouldn;'t mind having a few exercises along the way. and i punish myself because i'm so tired and i just want to waste the day. and so i fell asleep and woke up at a redolent 3pm. how wonderful.

the chinese new year break has been relatively fun! been doing alot of fun things. reunion dinner was not too bad. quite good conversation, etc. watched amelie at jeremy's. first day new year and church service was great. felt really joyful communing with God. visiting was boring but interesting to see all the different faces. at night at the ritz was a nice dinner and after that adjourned to acid bar for drinks and to chill out which was nice.

yeah. went clubbing the other day on wednesday night for law bash. it was happening=D didn't know clubbing was that fun, really borught back memories of prom night clubbing. dancing around with people that you know and stuff. mmm so gonna look forward to law huh. hopefully hopefully.


the dreaded 'going back to camp' has been inevitable. still still, two months more. persevere....
it's really hard to persevere when all you see is the 'here and now' but then army people had it so much worse, the 9 months of OCS training. NS has skewed me, seriously. it's hard to put away the bad, especially since i soak up everrything like a bloddy sponge. doesn't say much for my backbone actually, or my character.