Tuesday, January 25, 2011

I'm a compulsive twitterer, I admit. You'd see chunks of it everyday. If you like to follow me drop me a request.
I'm @ceadsearc so yeah. do let me know.

Most of the time for very personal stuff, or stuff that will make me twitter; but sometimes the stuff I write there is so important for my daily life that I have to blog about it, if only to remind myself about it.

About an hour ago I blogged "The Lord's plans for me will stay firm and his goodness and Faithfulness will keep me to Him, if only I'd remain more! To remain in His love."
And then i fell quite badly, from grace, into the fire. and slowly I turned back to Jesus my Lord, and tried to meditate on the parable of the 'prodigal son', whom, having turned away, turned back and was WELCOMED back in loving arms and loving embraces.

And soon then, a most wonderful thing happened. My soul just felt the Lord Jesus's presence; I just felt that the Lord Jesus actually loves me, cherishes me, chose me, and that I belong to Him - man, I haven't felt this way in a long time. And it was so nourishing and empowering and wonderful and so strong and so secure and so nourishing, that, like Aslan did to the children of Narnia in the show, I felt His love breathe life into my bones and my soul again.
Because love gives me strength; to be loved gives me strength. "I am Your beloved, your creation...". that song. I felt like I'm his pride and joy again, His beloved, again.

He just loved me like a parent loves me; and I feel like His child again. And He said 'put the helmet of salvation on' - yes, Lord. for I felt His love again, so real this time, embracing my being. My soul. In embrace. He embracing me, not the other way round. I'm too bad to embrace anyone. But yeah.

So today is REMAINING in Him. And in His love; for His love endures forever.