crap i'm in such a fuzz. i'm getting all frustrated and only beauty and art and God can save me but I'm so sinful anyway and mebbe He's testing me, argh. im a wreck. seriously. been all stressed out and artificially engineered throughout the day it just kills me....
it's this endless spiral that kills me and wrecks me. it's as though there's two parts of my mind fighting. the good and the bad, the dr jekell and mr hyde in me. and they are struggling real bad, and sometimes hyde wants to take over.
sigh
i'm not even articulate, but i can't be. i'm too busy. i have too many things to do. ahhhh.