I think I am truly incapable of feeling true human emotion and human connection. I am incapable of connection.

I don't know why.
But this insecurity is killing me. This paranoia that people are just sweet-mouthing each other, when really they hardly mean what they say.

They can say 'your'e so nice' but it really means something else.

okay i must stop this because i always do something stupid and yah it sucks arggghhhh