i can't even begin to describe today's Quiet time experience. the day didn't start out well, with family issues and stuff, but later on i really immersed myself in prayer to the amazing Lord, and simply have faith, that the sovereign Lord of the heavens and the earth is more than capable to do much more than we could ever imagine of Him, beyond our wildest expectations. and i learnt to be still, calm my mind down, ask God to remove the distractions away, and be honest to Him. not say things that my mind thinks i should say, but say things that my soul really wants to say. and it made all the difference. as i continued to wait upon Him i could feel my body just cracking up, in a good way, in the same way that a massager will make your muscles crack up, but this was throughout the whole body; and moreover as i prayed that i would please God, which was one step greater than just knowing God (i started praying that I'll really know God, but later on the verse popped up in my mind "But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him." (Hebrews 11:6)), and it is to seek to please Him, because God is a God who rewards, is an ever-flowing Spring of joy and happiness. And well even though I didn't articulate it well, His JOY suddenly welled up in my heart, flowed through my heart. and later on i felt those physical sensations. it was totally amazing. i thank God that as I opened my eyes all the hurt and the pain was gone. all the muscular tensions were gone. i found there wasn't any distractions. my mind was at peace. my soul was at peace. thank God for His amazing gift and now i realise that's where the best place is. under His wings.
and His joy will be my strength! and His strength will be made perfect in my weakness. it's total dependence. learning to surrender! yay.

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