more discipline, O God, more discipline, to grow everyday, to learn new things, to be filled with a constant appreciation of you, an awareness of Your presence, to constantly grow, and to constantly walk with You. This is where I belong, and where i find rest.
"I just want to be where you are, in your dwelling place forever
Take me to the place where you are, I just want to be with You
I want to be where You are, dwelling in Your presence
Feasting at your table, surrounded by Your glory
In your presence, that's where I always want to be
I just want to be, I just want to be with You"

we always think that the world is always much nicer and we're always searching for nicer things, but the Beatitudes that I've learnt today taught me, perhaps, that it's important just to be content. just to be with God, and in Him, Lord you are the source, the centre, need nothing else. to be honest, and to be changed and sanctified everyday, because we always struggle with sin. but dead fish don't struggle. it's the battle we still continue to fight, that by His strength we'll overcome.

to surrender all to God and let Him take control. let it drift away, let all the hurt go. be thankful about joy.

but more discipline is important because it'll enable me to study His word more attentively and understand more about God through His Word, because it's divine and useful for so many things, and it is God-breathed. and thus how will i know how to please God if i don't even know what makes God happy? so i must be more consistent about my QT. because it's a marathon, and every little bit counts.