This verse speaks strongly:
"

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, 
but in humility consider others better than yourselves. 
Each of you should look not only to your own interests, 
but also to the interests of others. 

Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus"

 I used to be a much more lovable, loving boy. no worries. no cynicism, no 'superiority complex'. but in NS
i developed shells to protect myself. especially the shell of pride, that hardens my heart against our Lord Jesus
and hardens my heart against others. knowing that they'll hurt me and stuff. of course. we're all sinners. our human
nature is selfish. especially in trials.
so now i'm going to soften my heart. i'm going to empathise and do my best for others again. even though i'm
a sgt, i'm going to try to feel for others. i want everyone to know God. i want everyone to be loved by me even
a little bit. i'm going to try my best to love again. to love my parents, to make them happy. knowing that my
life is but a shadow, a vapour in the wind. it comes and goes, yet if i can bring some joy to the world, i'm sure
Christ will be happy and people will be touched.

when i was less proud things were going well with me. now i can't feel anything, i'm just judging people. i can't feel
love and all sorts of emotions. my music is suffering coz i can't feel. i can't connect.
sigh.
it all has to do with pride.
so now the pride has to go.