It's been a long time since i've updated this blog. so many things have happened since then; i got my results, which weren't that good, but they were credible i suppose. overall i guess i haven't been putting in the effort required to get the As, but i guess i was satisfied with what i got.

it's been a period of bumming and slacking and hanging out with friends doing things like play dota or hanging out at walas, which have been decidedly good fun. i've frequented headquarters at paradiz almost twice a week ever since june started, which shows you how much lanning i've been doing.

i guess a highlight for me was the vcf foc camp held at scripture union campsite. i just felt that God was so powerfully involved in the camp that His presence was with us in everything that we did there, be it praying for good weather for the beach games which were a great success, to the wonderful worship session, to the theme talks, and even through general fellowship, how His Spirit infused the place with peace and loving kindness. and i had wonderful experiences with Jesus Himself in my dormitory, while worshiping Him, during worship, during meetings, and i say it was a great experience just being part of the team to organise the camp, really must thank God for that opportunity, and to thank lester too for asking me. i really miss the people there already, and the meeting room where we used to hang out for our meetings.
some great pals met there during the camp, which was really nice. they're all great people, my brothers and sisters in Christ, joel, guoyi, teck tee, clara, elaine, angel, jenny, serene, jeanette. woohoo! and i've got a fan club now! clara and teck tee set it up, you can see it at http://weheartshawnpoon.blogspot.com


i guess i had a very nice time with Jesus/God just now. i want a good relationship with Him. and i guess i've been struggling in my relationship with Him because i've doubted certain things, but when He whispers to you that "shawn i have chosen you" or something like "i chose you, you did not choose me, but i have chosen you" how can you not want to fall into His arms and embrace the love that you cannot get from this world? how can you not want to be a more faithful servant and follower of Jesus Christ?
but i want that close relationship now! i want it. i've got enough of this world. it can't offer me much.

so stop doubting shawn. and really i realise i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. i was listening to "umbrella" and suddenly all the notes fell in my head again, there was music. i was like, i could tell it was Db major and it really was in Db! wow. my own songs sound nice again and melancholic in it's melancholic splendour. SMIL.

really when i'm writing blogs i'm blogging for posterity. i'm blogging to look back 10 years down the road and see where i''ve been coming from and where i'm headed to. that's why the old entries are still there. you can see them. because they are a part of me that constantly evolves for the better, i hope.

the mumblings are still there, but now at least there is a peace.