Gotta break through!

cannot let your mood be detracted by what people think of you - or what you think you should be - like if your parents are angry at you and disappointed it doesn't mean you gotta be like, sad, all the time, or chastise yourself!

as the song says

"girl PUT YOUR RECORDS ON, Play me your favourite song, JUST GO AHEAD LET YOUR HAIR DOWN / sapphire and faded jeans, i hope you get your dreams, just go ahead let your hair down"!

yah sometimes u gotta be happy even if the rest of the world don't want you to be - because they're sad. but hey, you're not them!

i realise i dont blog enough coz now i have twitter, i have fb, but blogging is realy when you want to express something of yourself. I mean, im not perfect, and part of me is thinking this is damn stupid why the hell am I writing this and not studying and it's useless because it's not going to change my life - after i post this ill go ahead back and be the damn old schoolboy i was, is, and hopefully will stop being but knowing that i will still be, like that.

It's very sians and only GOD can slowly change me which He is doing as I pray to Him and enjoy His love and His presence and His comfort and joy and assurance and all those wonderful things and rest in His love - and Him willing slowly submit myself to Him - submit my body - which has been ravaged - to Him and let him slowly change me. as I remain in Him.

the lesson is still clear. "remain in Me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself, IT MUST REMAIN IN THE VINE".
I must remain in CHRIST always. and i believe, for He has said so, that He is going to be with me, He is going to be faithful, He will be with me "for the rest of my life" (his words, not mine).
and it will happen, i believe. i will look back and notice his hand in my life, even though, well, my physical body is weak and i'm undergoing a milion and one infirmities. but ultimately, salvation for my soul is real.

i notice that every post goes back to GOD but then that's the only hope.