how i miss my nice blog.
i think i'm going mad.
mad enough to be stuck in a rut for a long time.

i feel i'm being ignored all the time, really.
all these people.
ask them
"do you want to go for lunch"?
kena ignored.
like i said, or i told my other friends, i am always on the friend's ladder. no one wants to "Take a chance on me".

"if you change your mind,
i'm the first in line
honey im still free
take a chance on me".

i feel like a freaking whore.
partly this has to do with my mental condition of ocd.
but also to do with my impatience.
everyone is getting married.
i am looking for love in all the wrong places, with all the wrong people.
but then i don't want some boring guai goodie-two-shoes who will bore me to death.
argh.

confusions.