some energy is good, thank you very much. yeah. i don't know i think i've lost the spark that kept me going. sigh. God please help. ugh. you know you try to remember moments that you thought were the most important and most happy, and you can't find it, and it's alll gone...and you're left floudering....and you have no confidence in yourself. i don't know. why do i feel this way?
sigh. but it's coming back, really. today's SES concert was uplifting, and it was fun to play also, coz it was nice performing and you know ministering with music. well. it was nice yeahh. coz the whole day had been rather sucky.

i hate having this cough that just won't go away, it's so irritating, coz you can't laugh, nor talk, coz every time you want to laugh
or talk you end up coughing. and for one who talks a great deal it's so difficult not to talk, you noe?

had this really cool dream....i'd just wish it were reality. you know it was like having fun back with my old classmates, sitting at a table talking, and later on it was so cool coz i was in the canteen when someone, let's just call the person X, came to me and started chatting with me and the person knew my name and i knew the person's! and it was like, going to help this guy on some math problem [think it was how to find the normal distribution from the table...haha sigh such dreams, eh] and later on talking with me one on one and something...crap....but then when i went to sch..sigh...its like...the person never knew whu i was! sigh. just ignored. kena. jialat....damn pissed. argh. spoilt my day lah...thats the way to spoil my day, go ahead man..=)

sigh. going back to ac...everyone being a bitch but mervlyn was really nice....yeah. she's cool. i dunno. so MG. haha.

i'm back to writing pop music. good pop music. i'd craft 10 songs. watch this space.