One word: I love the acoustics in the Esplanade Concert Hall. Beautiful. You hear the sound of silence, the ringing tone that comes after all is still. And in that stillness of air, you hear beautiful melodies and rounded harmonies.
That's cool for you.


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Having too high expectations of life really sucks, personally. I guess because I've enjoyed lots of highs and fun, especially with good friends from last time, being involved in all of that, I'd tend to expect the same things now. I tend to expect that every outing, or talk, we'll have would be one with some form of meaning, some form of deep connection, not just a mundane tete-a-tete that means absolutely nothing. But no, I cannot expect that. i must not. Expecting that only means that when it doesn't happen I become insecure and start questioning my whole existence and how come it doesn't really happen.when all you get is 'friendly his and simple goodbyes' (from 'i cannot expect). maybe that's why i prefer the company of girls sometimes, because guys often find it difficult to express their emotions. i can't blame them. but sometimes it gets too much when all they speak of is National Service and guns and all that. i mean, yeah everyone is in Army now, and maybe i'll never understand this, but, dont' you find it a bit more sian when you're OUT of army and you still wish you're BACK IN it from the way you talk?
i'll never understand it. but even when boys were not in NS i could never really understand what they were actually feeling at the moment, or if they were feeling anything. because most of the times boys think, they dont' feel. at least they try to keep an objective logical stance on any issue which really irks me because i believe that no stance is truly logical or objective anyway. so...

(oh btw i love bloggging. i feel much better after that. it certainly helps you to straighten out your thoughts because sometimes all you need to do is write)

so that's why going out with girls are betta! girls, you can talk to, they enjoy and understand emotions much more, and they try to blend in rather than wanting their own way, at least in the general sense that's the impression i get. i mean, head-strength is a masculine quality, while acqueisence a female one, isn't it.


but i really know it's all God's will and sometimes that's all I need to know.