The problem with me is that i'm just too judgemental. i look at people and go tsk tsk how can you do this and how can you do that? but it's all a journey, shawn, we're all going through this. just because you seem to be alright in some areas doesnt' mean you can criticize others in these areas, because well, you aren't mr perfect yourself anyway.

i feel absolutely rotten in NS anyway. what's the point of making us work so hard and study so hard for 18 years to leave us rotting in NS and wasting our brains away. i mean, what's the point in that. i know there isn't any other practical solution, but then, well, just a thought. when i'm there i just feel so hard-up, needing to get away, needing to connect, adrenaline, yet having no physical outlet to exert it.
it's incredibly rotten.