I haven't been updating this page in a while, which is well, a natural progression to life.

anyway the weekend has been interesting. friday was spent playing pool at BTP. saturday was spent a little sick, resting at home, till the FA Cup finals at night; sunday was rather hectic and it was fun being at tania's house for a gathering--missed all those people! my past, the heyday of yesteryear-- all revisited. chatting away, met josh and bernard, lorraine and the others. interesting, interesting.

monday was spent playing tennis, which was not bad; managed to score some good points. went jamming but that wasn't very good at all coz there were just too many guitarists. i ended up hanging around. that was just, sigh. nvm. it's okay. still more a pianist, anyway. tried to write, didn't end up very well. got a few half-baked songs so far. hehs hehs. it was really fun later on at home coz all the aunties and uncles started singing their childhood chinese songs and i was laughing my butts off. i mean some of their songs are really so interestingly simple! they're so cute. laughable also. haw haw haw. and they came with actions. har harr...=D my auntie nad my mother were dancing away. i was there playing the guitar for them but laughing most of the time.

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Jesus didn't just give me His talents, or material blessings, etc ... He gave me His life. now think about how big that sacrifice was: if i were to give my life to someone, it'll be so much more than just giving him my gifts, or my time, effort, money--it'll mean the end of me, the end of my entity, the end of everything else-- so it's only natural to be thankful and give everything I have to Him> and guess what, the keys are unlocked, the mind becomes clear, the past is revealed. music flows, songs come through easily, as though it's not me playing the piano but Someone else. to hear the bass notes of a chord. it's rather interesting. the dream-like states of existence. you're in the middle of it all, listening and wondering abt how everything came through. gotta find the swell.

if you give yourself to God (and this is for me to remember as well!) He'll give you far more than you can ever imagine, hope for, or even want (at this present stage). and this is what i really really really really really really really have to remember.