It's been an interesting weekend, followed by another intresting couple of days.
dont usually blog about my life, but then.
it was interesting. monday night was fun with kevin and talking and laffing like old times. oh wells.

one of my biggest aims now is to get closer to God and know Him more intently. i realised i haven't been actually doing this very well, so hence my new commitment. i have to know Him for His sake, for the main goal of knowing Him, and not for other things, such as-- oh i can write new songs! oh i can have a better life-- no, no, it is not for that, but for the sole purpose of knowing Him and obeying Him.

tuesday morning was interesting. i was feeling really shacked, but the thought came to mind about Jesus and His great love for me. and i was really just feeling His comforting presence around me, a comforting wind. i have realised i'm not going to live a moderate life. my Lord told me to take up my cross and follow Him, and not look back- often it is us, the privileged, that find the most difficulty doing so-- Jesus said how difficult are the rich to go to heaven-- and it's because we aren't ready to put down all our crowns and take up the cross to follow. and that has been my problem. but i realise that the life God has for me is going to be much better and much more fulfilling and will ultimately decide my destiny. nothing else can bring satisfaction, i realised, my soul thirsts for the living God. nothing else can bring that same kind of love and security as the knowledge that God is with me and for me. nothing else can bring me protection from the evil one. so i want to be radical-- to really really follow Jesus and obey Him and leave no baggage. don't want to have all these other commitments and distractions. just want to narrow it down and be obedient to Him. and to worship Him. and to give my all to His purpose. you can't be a Christian, and be obsessed over music, or be obsessed over sport; one can only serve one thing.

this morning i was struck by the thought that the Jesus i worship is the same Lord Jesus found in Scripture! it may sound so obvious but sometimes it doens't really srtike you that hard; but yeah this morning it did, that yeah, it was a historical thing, He indeed did come down, was born a virgin birth, did all the miracles, died on the cross and rose again on the third day, appeared to the disciples, and is in Heaven. it's wonderful knowledge to know that Jesus remains the same and is seated at the right hand of God. it brings a perspective to things; to follow is to obey the things He said in the Bible. and another thought that came to mind is how i am a son of God! God is my Father, im adopted by faith in Jesus Christ and im an adopted son! in His family! it's wonderful. it's not just justification; it's adoption. thank you Father.


it's funny how all these thoughts appear during morning parade. parade isnt;' so bad after all. haha.