i am emo now.
i hate weddings.
don't think it'll be my turn anytime soon.
not in the near future anyway.

while i am happy for the couples who are going through their lives and celebrating it, makes me think, i dunno when god will make it my turn.
it seems a long long way from here.

such is my life.

and the problem is that my ocd makes it impossible for me to have meaningful relationships with other people without the fear of the obsessions striking into me the fear and anxiety. i don't know what's going on with me, i wish i did, but i don't.