life is ironic - maybe it's more fun this way.

what can i say?

that's life - you be happy in your own way,
i'll be happy in mine.

unfortunately, sometimes that's life
we can't always be happy
and sometimes the problem is when
our happiness depends on circumstances

it would be so nice to just be all pure and holy and say
"our happiness comes from jesus Christ alone"
but maybe deep down in me i wish i could say that
but maybe now i can't,
oh goddamn it hurts

writing songs helps me express some of these angsty feelings
that are a product of my right brain
having a very very excitable right brain
makes me musical, yes,
but it also contributes to angsty feelings that i can't control
or feelings that i just want to take over the world
blogging is good because no one reads this blog anyway
but at least there is something for posterity
which i can then look back on and say, oh this is me,
on 3 september 2011, being an idiot
a little anal and a little, inconsiderate, to say the least
but then again these feelings are really bad
and i can't stand it sometimes
sigh

jealousy turning saints into the sea


hmms. i will release an ep soon