Bad news. never mind what it is, just bad.

it is just providence, really. somehow, at this stage of our lives, we are so influenced by MTV and the pop media about living your life to the fullest we forget that it's God's purpose that really counts, and not your own. you can't choose God's purpose for you, you weren't even born when he decided why HE placed you on this earth, and it is for HIS pleasure not yours. not mine. somehow i think deep down inside we knew what purpose he's called us for, but maybe we don't really listen and further that purpose to see whether it is really that way, we just treat it as the passing wind.
and it's not the way i should be living my life, is it.

nothing on earth comes from ourselves. it's all providence. our talents, our life, friends, our family, everything, all we ever needed or made us happy was from God, and somehow i just want to be thankful and proclaim thanks and how he's blessed me. i gotta realise that because God loves me, I need to proclaim that love to others, not as an obligation but because i am so inspired and so touched by God's love that i should share it.

now as i wake up i should pray that all things will be well. i daily put my trust in You, O Lord. and i shall not confuse the gifts with the giver, because it is You who has given me life,and the gifts, and I just want to praise You.


and as i watched spiderman, i realised you can be young and still make an impact on the world. i'm already old enough. i should stop kidding myself that i am young and time can still wait for me. then when will i stop thinking like that? at what age should i grow up and do something good to the world, or something that God wants me to do? how old was David when he killed goliath? i'm never too young to do anything.

so i should be consisent about my life, consistent all the time to God's plan. and what God wants.