Today's been seriously joyful.

To be honest, I have been doubting my salvation alot. i was reading the Shorter Catcheism and like some things i didn't really feel.

so i prayed again. i prayed to receive Christ Jesus as Lord again. u know i'm really insecure about these things. i prayed to my Heavenly Father to forsake all known sins and repent and all that.

i prayed for a filling of the Holy Spirit of God into me.

and i'm seriously very joyful now! it was like, i was just praising God without even thinking about what to say. it's just like the words came out as though it was from a psalm, you know, it just flowed out giving thanks and exaltation to God above. i give thanks that hey i'm getting some kind of reassurance of my own salvation that can never be taken from me. Lord Jesus i'll live in faith, obedience, and trust forever. it was like, i love the Lord Jesus! i really do. i mean i could really feel it again. and feel that i was truly praying to Him my Saviour again. and really feel that I am justified, that I'm part of God's family as His own child. i am a child of God! the Spirit of God is in me to praise and worship Him and that's great!

the shorter catcheism also mentions that we are to continually have faith and keep having faith. it's not a one time thing, but something that keeps going and keeps going. so yeah.

all the way man!