The Lord Jesus has such a wonderful sense of timing. yesterdasy i was just talking to my mother about the problem about Christians who always try to earn their salvation by doing good works in the hope that God'll see them and recognise them and all that, and like alot of churches have this funny idea of waht it means to be a Christian. they hence get very burdened and all that (because they'll never be as good enough, because we're not meant to live that way! we're not Jesus! we're just men. He's God, thats y he's perfect but we're men.) and so i was just talking to the Lord last night just like a friend and it was really nice because i could feel the life just rushing back to my bones again, as i was simply able again to communicate with people, to communicate with Him with my heart and not just with my mind. (if you get what i mean). i mean i was back to my old self again and really the feeling i get from just talking with Jesus is simply something that you'd never experience ever before. it's urm really something wonderful and loving and heartfelt and like He's just your old friend and you can just talk to Him, not because you feel that you merit it or what but because of what He's done. i mean last time i was really quite afriad of talking with the Lord because i feel i wasn't good enough but yhou know what it's what He has done and who He is (he's forgiving, loving, etc) and not what we can do by our own efforts. so however unworthy we feel He still loves us and we can still talk to Him, and He hears!

and so today i was doing masterlife and i thought the thing would be on witnessing to the world. but funny enough something really struck me from galatians. it was about the idea of grace! it says since we belong to Christ, we're not to be burdened by the yoke of slavery! the whole idea of a few passages and chapter 6 was that since Christ died for all our sins, we're under grace, we're saved by faith alone. and because we're saved by faith alone, we should not be trying to earn our salvation. that's slavery! it's a burden! because we're nver going to be good enough, but then we keep trying to be perfect, and that burden of expectation just prevents me at least from leaving the victorious Christian life. but now that we know that hey the Lord has forgiven us of allsins and justified us from all of that through His blood, we can just go and love and be free because there's no more burden, we live by the Holy Spirit, and the Spirit is a Spirit of love and natural Godly characteristics of Christ and all that, not trying our best to conform to the law, but it's a natural outspring of goodness that will just naturally come through us.
you know what it's really uncanny. Jesus has a wonderful sense of humour.

praise the Lord!

(i've been wiating for deliverance for the longest time and i thank Jesus that He's shown it somehow. "He's faithful, even though we're unfaithful, for He cannot deny Himself.")

the quiet time yseterday was about this man who was so aware of Jesus' presence in His life all the time. and alot of times people think hey we can't be like that we're not so holy, but after this verse you know what we can! it's just a matter of faith. we sometimes think we're not good enouhg, but no one really is. so yseterday i just had faith that hey you know im good enough, because Jesus has forgiven everything! I can be with Him just as the pastor in the devotion book just included Him in everything. i can speak to Him just like a friend speaks to a friend because of what He did for me, there's no spseration, or need to have any kind of formal courtesies (of course not disprect lah) but no need to be like, He's so high and mighty, all that. Yes He is God, but we're His!