There is no greater joy than being with Jesus, my friend. I know He still cares for me despite alot of rubbish I've done and alot of doubt that has plagued my mind. He must, because He is great, and He is love. Yujing said something about Jesus and love being synonymous, and I would probably agree, because there is alot He could have done but He still forgives.

So this 2006, I want to draw closer to the Lord. I want to be more deeply in love with Him. and slowly by faith, i hope each passing day i can see Him work in my life.


A new year, a new dawn. It reminds me of a song.

"I believe that God will bring new blessings,
I believe that spring will come in the end.
I believe in hope in new beginnings
I'd be led to water and live forever"
- a new beginning, shawn poon

okay so this is my song la, but i guess it's meant for such times as these. new beginnings, new year, new resolutions, probably alot of different situations to encounter. 2006, what will the future hold? well, i don't know, but i gotta trust that God knows better and I just gotta have faith that 2006 will be better than a turmulous 2005.
I'm going to university, so it should be great, huh? get a girlfriend, slack a little, study lots, get my brains working again, meet new people, get baptised, etc. how wonderful i'd think?

Not to forget the people i met at civil defence, but really that's a period of time i'd rather forget. it is fine, it's still great, but it's so different from the people i used to know. it's really so different, to be among so many people of different backgrounds. i just need something familiar to hold on to again.

and what will the future bring?
sometimes i'm afraid of the future, but i realised that the future holds nothing scary for me. if i could go past 2005 and still hang my head up high, nothing will stop tomorrow from being great. i just need a bit more faith and to have a bit of balance in my life. to balance my spiritual life, my social life, my physical life, my intellectual life. the social life's been dead for a bit but i believe that it can be revived. just gotta invest, just gotta invest.

and i'm still a bit psycho. it must be all the brainpower that needs a little bit of things to push it. a bit of motivation. a little bit more targets to achieve and i'd be fine.